As we all know, life throws us curve balls. Some of them can turn out to be, in the end, a very positive, rewarding, and enlightening experience. Sometimes the fear is what we are running from and not the tasks at hand, the planning required, or the outcome.
Whether you are recovering from the loss of a loved-one after dementia caregiving or some other event, grief is different for everyone. Just because one person behaved a certain way doesn’t mean that you have to follow in their lead.
Depending on your personal experience of whether you lived independently before the relationship with your loved one, you may have to figure out who you are now. I had never lived on my own before marriage. I went from attending college to marriage, and had no experience in living all by myself. You must figure out what you want out of life as an independent person, and possibly how to go about whatever that is. I am still figuring that out. I used to think while I was caregiving, that when it was all over I would want to be with another person to spend the rest of my life. Now that six years have gone by, I’m not so sure I do. It would take a very special person to urge me to marry again. On the one hand, I just don’t want to go through being a caregiver again! After 19 years, I want some “me” time.
Take it a step at a time. But when new things cross your mind that you’d like to do someday, take action. Make it happen. I am so very lucky because I have two friends Jim and I have known for years, and they invited me to go with them to Yellowstone, and the Canadian Rockies by train after Jim’s death. I didn’t hesitate, I went.
Don’t wait for someone else to come along and invite you. If you do, you may never realize your dreams. I can honestly say that I have had a wonderful life! If it ends today, I would have few regrets. Don’t waste whatever time is ahead of you.
I love dogs partly because I had dachshunds as a child. I didn’t much like cats, but that was probably because I am allergic to them and sometimes get asthmatic being with them for a long time. Early on, our son wanted a pet, but Jim was asthmatic, and so we could never have anything bigger than a gerbil.